Learning

Realizations

I have realized some things in my life and one of the many things that I realize that I can't really control is my anger. I used to have a wrap on it, but I realize that I can't maintain it anymore. The simplest things set me off when I used to deal with them with ease. Is the truth that I never was able to cope with this stress?? I feel that I'm due to find out.

Wonderings

Ever wonder what keeps a good man "good"?? A good woman, is my response. There are things that we all have endured throughout our childhood, but it shouldn't stop us from being the men and women that the peace in our hearts has created. Be good to those who love you, even though it might be hard and they might not listen. No one is simple and neither man nor woman is an island.

People

I'm here and I don't know how to feel. I learned so much from him and his family. A father figure to be sure. A great man, in all regards. It tears me up. My heart and solemn prayers to all affected.

My thoughts

I have ADD and moderate depression, or that's what I've been told. I'm inclined to believe it based on the path my life has taken. The question that hits me now is: where to go from here?
Life always tries to get at me, but imma deal because she is something else. I'm gonna make it happen. Where I am with her is something from my wildest dreams!!!! Her love is something that can't be completely measured.
New lesson: everything can be quantified in dollars n cents.

The Things We Learn

I now know what the truth is. I now know what this feeling is. I now understand what I havne't been feeling... trust. Or the lack of it. You don't trust the fact that I'm not messing around. You don't trust the fact that I've been  buddy buddy with people, but it doesn't mean anything. You just don't trust me... fair enough, but do you love me? Do you really? Because I can look at all these so-called other chicks that you say my conversations indicate that I'm flirting with and none of them compare to you. None of them!!! So, you know what?? Whatever.... the ball is in your court. The next big decision you decide to make about us will be it.... I love you more than life itself. Ask my real friends, they know...Make your move....

Words from a half dead knight...

Lost

Where am I at wit mine? Idk. I have a plan, a goal, a destination but I can't FUCKIN GET THERE!!!!!!!!!!!   Have I been barking up the wring tree? Have I been nitpicking at the wrong people all these years? I'm in a place where I know what I want but it's pulling away from me. What's wrong with me? Maybe I've been my own problem all this time.... I haven't felt this way in a VERY long time. I don't know what to do anymore.... Help.....

MindBlown

You know when you miss someone so much, you end up with all this fidgety energy that you can't do anything with? That's where I am. I'm stuck in between You Got It Bad and Twisted. I miss her like trees miss water. I miss her like a person with hypothermia misses heat. I miss her like...like... like I can't even find words anymore. My heart has found his second home, because the first home is with the Father. I love her with all of me and will continue to do so. I love my Tee