Compliment

When people speak of complimenting something, you usually think of making positive comments towards a person's attire.  They also refer to how angles compliment to equal 90 or 180 degrees.  I'm referring to compliments in terms of relationships.  For two people to compliment each other, the two much understand and accept one another mentally and physically.  To understand a person mentally, you must be able to look past the other person's flaws.  Not only to look past them, but to accept them for who they are.  To understand a person physically, your goal is to not to try to change a person, but to help them change themselves.  We all have made the mistake of trying to convert people to our wants and needs, and not accepting the person for who they were.  Unfortunately, there are somethings to watch out for.  These things are susceptible to change because there are components to a relationship that can alter most of these.

• Someone who you can understand when you first meet them might not be the same person in 3-6 months.
• The heart of a person is impressionable, regardless of what they say.  It depends on what impression lasts...
• Compromise is the life force of all relationships.  Without it, everything will soon fall apart, whether it be friendship or a marriage.  
• Trust is a mindset that can't work without Compromise.  trust cannot stand on it's own.  To truly trust someone, regardless of circumstance, is to understand them and the ability to compromise.
• You can't forcibly adjust someone's  communication patterns, unless they are open to said change.

When things fall apart, heartache is like the mushroom cloud that you see in movies after a huge bomb explodes, because the actual breakup is the actual bomb.  Most people attribute the breakup to sex, cheating, and a multitude of other reasons, but I believe that the underlying reason is a loss of compromise and understanding.  Once these two pillars fall, the relationship will cave in on itself unless something is done.  Happiness will cease unless the two can still compliment one another.

Find your compliment..........

Done......

Burnt out... Fried.... Cooked... Baked... None of these words can truly put together what I feel inside... My heart is torn every which way and my mind with it. I don't know what to do, where to go, how to feel.... My brain feels like it's been sitting on an overheated radiator in the middle of summer. I don't want to go to school, or work, or out of the fuckin' house for that matter. I feel everything crashing down around me... I'm tired of putting up the face of a happy muthafucka. It's starting to sicken me. I'm starting to detest even smiling. I can't take it.... I'm tired... I'm done...

The truth behind the gate: Part I

My mind are running everywhere and I don't know where to start.  My heart is bent backwards, sideways, and upside down trying to sort out what's inside.  The black market is murder, for real.  Attempting to tear me apart, limb from limb, heart chamber from heart chamber.  It's torn me in so many different ways, it's ridiculous.  Women think it's easy to be a nice guy, to be compassionate, kind, sweet, and caring without it having an effect on you.  The truth behind the gate is that the pain in one's heart is usually more than they can bear.  Usually, the individual will take it out on others whether they choose to or not.  To stud women would take years on end, and they might just feel the say ways about men.  They don't completely say how they feel for fear of being hurt and when they get hurt, they get mad at the man whose supposed to interpret exactly what she was thinking and how she felt because men have to be freakin' mind readers.  Those same women claim that men don't know what they want, when in fact some women are mad that what men want is so simple.  You don't need a quantum physics textbook to solve a Sudoku puzzle,so why would women think that you need to be complex when dealing with the heart?  I understand that relationships aren't easy and most people always hear the worst from their friends/relatives, but if the emotional maturity is present, then things are possible.

Parts of me, forced together

I feel like I have lived my life to appease the masses. There's a me for parties, there's a me for school. There was a me for church and a me for masking things. There's a me for fun and a me for stress. I've spent my life forcing all these different me's together, trying to make them work. Look at me now. A mess. There are like 39 different me's in my head, all prepared for different scenarios, but none of them are right. None of them are the real me....They all have parts to who I am.

I'm a whiner, a crier, a punk, a baby, an affectionate, a clown, and I'm not normal.

When can I get to the point that the parts of me that counted are made whole??

Apart

Apart.....

Tripping, stumbling, falling, lost... is where I am. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to feel. I am disconnected from myself. I'm stuck in 100 different ruts without an escape. I made myself a hermit. I am apart. Apart from everything. Apart from my feelings, thought processes, true needs and desires. I am apart. I am not used to deciding, thinking, feeling, or responding on my own anymore. I am apart. I am in school, just to be there. I am home, just to be here. I am apart. I feel lost from everything and anything, but yet He is there.

You start to wonder why He sticks around, why you end up in certain places, feeling certain ways, thinking that you can never get anything right. Maybe I'm looking wrong. Sometimes I feel that way, sometimes I don't. I am apart. I don't know how to pull it all together anymore.

To all my friends that keep repeating the right things in my ear, please keep doing so.
To all my ex's that I have hurt in the past, please forgive me.
To all the people that came to me for advice, if you ever see that I need some advice and you feel compelled to do so, by all means you are welcome.

I need help, just as much as anyone else. I'm falling apart and it isn't at the seams anymore. It's at the core.

I am apart....

The things people do and those that don't believe...

Do people really believe that the choices that the ones they love make choices that hurt them, but will help them? Have you ever been put in that situation, where a decision that you've had to make a choice that was beneficial to someone in the long run, but painful in the short term?

Alone.....

Mentally, emotionally, physically, sexually, spiritually.... All of these are different ways that one can have the unfortunate feeling of being alone. Craving touch, emotion, attention, comfort, salvation are things that make people go to extents that usually they would not attempt. Women will chase after men that they know are wrong for them, men will chase women that will give them the attention that they desire, people will chase after drugs and other paraphernalia that will give them the feeling of escape, wanting to forget experiences, memories, hate, lost love, and a plethora of different life situations.

Have you ever had the saddening, sickening feeling of loneliness, even when sitting in a group of people?  Laying next to someone you care about?  It's that feeling that drives us all to combat it in every other way but what we're supposed to do: actually sit down by ourselves and figure it out....

Ask yourself the question:  Do you feel alone?