Mental Flow.... #2

As everything gushes out like an unpredictable geyser, my mind is purging like a volcano. Never thought I would be back here.  I don't know how to phrase this anymore.  I don't know how to leave here anymore.  People close to be are hurting because I don't know what to do.  Pain is in excess, the flow is backed up.  Not knowing where to go, it back flows like regurgitation... back into my system.  School's a pain, life's a pain, pain is a pain.  Lol. Too funny, isn't it?  I can't deal anymore, but I have to because no one else can do it for me.

Flow

Feeling the slip sliding of thoughts flowing in my brain.... The ebb and flow of wow and hmmm as I walk aimlessly through the day... The wondering of whether I'm too soft or not the right flavor for the various settings of different relationships in my life. Is this supposed to be painless? I don't think so....
Watching the ebb and pulse making me tip toe through the brush and causing an internal blush...
Cuz i'm too dark for it to occur externally where everyone can see...
Not knowing how to deal with the flow of everything so real...
Dodging the rush of battleships in my heart trying to sink me and tear me apart....
Taking one step forward and eighteen steps back only to walk the same road again...
Agony, pain, distrust, disdain are all feelings that I have docked at before but i keep returning...
Why??? Why do I go back? Why do I flow near?? Why??? I don't know... All I can do is watch the flow....